Sep 14, 2010

DLS: Chronic Paranoia

When it comes time to get ready for bed there's one task that I always dread: washing my face. Now, it's not that I'm someone that loathes taking the energy to wash away the day's dirt, grime and makeup... but I have this chronic paranoia - - eerie sense that the exact moment I close my eyes there will be someone standing behind me! I used to think I was absolutely crazy until I came across friends that shared the same thoughts. One of my girlfriends even has to use a clear shower curtain b/c of the nagging feling that someone will be standing outside waiting for her.

I don't know when my anxiety started, or what even caused it, but it's something that I have to consciously give myself pep talks about every night. No joke... the moment I splash water on my face I start "rebuking the devil" and trying to calm my nerves lol. It's really getting out of hand. I'm fine during the day, but at night it's a different story.

I'm curious to know if anyone else out there experiences anxiety like this? If so, where did yours come from? What have you done to improve it?
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