Sep 14, 2010

DLS: Chronic Paranoia

When it comes time to get ready for bed there's one task that I always dread: washing my face. Now, it's not that I'm someone that loathes taking the energy to wash away the day's dirt, grime and makeup... but I have this chronic paranoia - - eerie sense that the exact moment I close my eyes there will be someone standing behind me! I used to think I was absolutely crazy until I came across friends that shared the same thoughts. One of my girlfriends even has to use a clear shower curtain b/c of the nagging feling that someone will be standing outside waiting for her.

I don't know when my anxiety started, or what even caused it, but it's something that I have to consciously give myself pep talks about every night. No joke... the moment I splash water on my face I start "rebuking the devil" and trying to calm my nerves lol. It's really getting out of hand. I'm fine during the day, but at night it's a different story.

I'm curious to know if anyone else out there experiences anxiety like this? If so, where did yours come from? What have you done to improve it?

4 comments:

Windy City Accountant said...

i think about getting into a car accident a lot. i don't have anxiety about it where it cripples me or makes me scared of driving, but i find myself thinking about it way too often. i have no clue where it came from though...

GorgeousPuddin said...

I have a slight phobia about this. My remedy is I must lock the bathroom door everytime I'm washing my face (or in the bathroom). That way I know for sure I'm alone in the bathroom and there is no way someone could get in.

I get asked all the time why do you lock the door? I'm here? Dude it's not even about you! LOL!

South Loop Social Light said...

@ Windy City - I'm always thinking about a head collision whenever I drive on 2 lane roads... definitely not a good thought.

@ GorgeousPuddin - I have to have the door open while I'm washing my face, but when I go to sleep I have to close every door, closet doors included. It's crazy but it's like I'm in my little cocoon or something.

Alaina said...

omgggg!! i'm exactly the same way!! i thought i was the only one. yeah, i've watched too many scary movies, definitely. i love it when i'm at home and my sister washes her face with me lol. but i live alone, so i leave my shower curtain to the side and always look around my bathroom before i wash my face!!

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